Learing to take it all in

Life happens very fast, and I am starting to realize that more and more now. Making decisions can be a hard and scary thing sometimes and lately I have been thinking about what decisions I need to make. Earlier today I called my dad just to talk, I do this on occasion because I love him and I miss him. I am still daddy's little girl so it is nice just to hear his voice sometimes. Well anyway, I was talking with him about life and the way I think I should be going. And it was just such a nice conversation. He knew exactly what to tell me and knew exactly what I needed to hear. None of us are perfect, we all have things that we need to change. This hit me really strong today. I can not get what I want without working towards it. And so that is what I am going to be doing, with the best cheerleaders a girl could ask for, her parents and her Father in heaven. It is going to be a crazy journey but well worth it in the end.

Its that time again

The end of summer is coming very quickly, which means it is about time for me to pack up and go back to Idaho for school. When I came home I did not know how I was going to be able to handle being home for 6 weeks. I can honestly say I was not really looking forward to being home for such a long time, I thought I would just want to leave. But I realized very quickly that that would not be true.I have loved my time at home and the opportunity I have had to be with my family and build my relationships with them. I have been able to spend one on one time with everyone which has been so nice because I get to build my personal relationship with them before I leave again. 
   It is going to be hard to say goodbye because I have gotten use to being home but I know it is time for me to go back, and part of me is ready to go back. I love school so much and I love the friends I have made there. That is where my life is right now. It is such a great atmosphere for me to be in and I would not have it any other way. 
   I am going to miss my sister dates with the best sister in the world, I am going to miss playing games with my little brother, I am also going to miss the sweet spirit he has. He is only 9 years old but he is so strong he is a great example to me. I am going to miss my 17 year old brother, he is in his Senior year in high school, I am going to miss seeing him do all the fun activities I remember doing as a Senior and feeling on top of the world. And I am going to miss my parents so much! They mean the world to me and they do so much for me and my siblings. They both work so hard to make sure we are happy and taken care of, it is so hard to not be around them all the time.
   Words cannot express what I have felt this summer, but this summer has been different from the rest. I am finally coming to figure out who I am, and I have figured out I take joy in different things than I use to and different things mean more to me than they have in the past. It has been a long journey and there is still so much more to come but I am looking forward to it. "Find joy in the Journey"

Goodbye Fishie...

Well fishie... Your time has come and gone. You were good to me, you were there for me in the good times and the bad. You helped me get close to people when I didn't know how else to. But like the saying goes, If you love something you have to let it go. A few days ago I promised my daddy that I would no longer give fishies. Not at home or school, the fishie is no longer allowed anywhere. So, this is goodbye fishie. I do not know what I will do without you. I need a new trademark. Goodbye... Forever.

My Hero... She gets better and better everyday

My mom has always been there for me and has always known what to say in my times of need. For these reasons and much much more my mom has always been my hero. However last week I had the opportunity to watch my siblings while my parents went out of town. I knew it would not be the easiest thing ever, but I don't think I knew exactly what I was getting myself into.
     The first two days they were gone my siblings had a lot of friends over which about do me in. I do not know how my mom does it, she is truly amazing. And the thing that really gets to me is I never see my mom complaining, she always has a huge smile on her face and is always willing to help us with anything. On Wednesday we had a chill day, no friends. And it was so nice, I know understand why my mom says no friends some days. She needs a break and we need a break. I could tell my siblings were getting worn down by the end of the second day.
    Then on Thursday I took them to Disneyland. I was a little scared for this day because I know when I go and only have to worry abut myself I get so tired, but now I was in charge of 3 other people as well as myself. It honestly was not bad at all though. We had so much fun and I feel like I handled everything pretty good. We did not stay the whole day though, we all got really tired so we went home around 9. It was a fun day though and I got to spend time just with my siblings which I do not get a lot.
     The rest of the week was pretty chill, not a lot of friends came over and I just stayed at home for the most part. It was such a good experience though and I loved it. However on Sunday when we got home from church I could not be happier that my parents were home. It was a good week but it was so long and tiring. My mom is so amazing and she has taught me well but I am not ready to do what she does on a daily basis just yet. 

See ya later.

Today my parents and my brother took of to Provo, Utah to drop my brother off at the MTC. He will be serving a two year mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. He will be serving in Seattle Washington. He and my family including myself are so excited for him!
       This year at school I had the opportunity to attend with my brother. He is my only older sibling so I have always looked up to him. He is such a great example of who I need to be and who I want to be. While we were at school together we got the chance to hang out a lot and I got so close to him. I honestly can call him one of my best friends.
       I am so proud of my brother but it was hard to say goodbye because we have gotten so close and I know we will not have much time like we have had the past year because both of us will be moving on with our lives. However, I do not want to loose the relationship we have created so I am determined to keep in contact with him. I am going to miss him very much and school will not be the same without him but I know he is doing the right thing. I have decided this is not goodbye this is simply just see ya later.
      It has taken me a while to get this relationship with my brother but now that I have it I would not ask for anything different. I have found true happiness in Family and the relationships I make with my loves ones.